1°c 1:21 end of January
It feels weird to notice how much you can change in... one week, one month, three months, six months... one year... 
Consistency isn't eternal, time always moves, period time changes but the things I enjoyed (still like them) and activities I used to do never last long.
I feel unstable because of this. Why am I not able to keep the same diary ? the same place ? the same handwriting ? Why am I not able to keep the things like they were before ?
Humans are constantly evolving every day. They develop themselves. They must change and move.

A motionless swamp is destined to sleep forever. Still water brings diseases.

And so to avoid death, you must move on ?




-2°c 13:15 Today it's Monday. Yesterday I walked a looot with my friend, we went to a cafe after our painting session and it was sooo cold outside but it was so fun also. E offered us the coffee because she was working there ! She is very very lovely. When I wanted to loudly thank her, everybody was speaking at the same time so I wasn't sure she heard and it makes me feel internally awkward : do people hear me when I speak ?
My voice is pretty low I think, I met many asian with the same low tone as me

Doodling until late


I slept the whole morning because I spend such a fun night !! I connected to draw online and met the person who drew Slow Damage characters with me yesterday!!! We drew OC (our dowgs) together the whole evening, and honestly I was still blushing when I covered my head under the sheets in the bed.

I wonder if we could be friend or something ~

Today we're going out to paint ! LET'S GO!
Since I discovered the steps counter on my phone (phone I must clean), I enjoy to walk more. This is a very "digital native" feature which adds a real will to move and has consequence of my mobility, I know, this makes me sounds very dependent of technology and question the essential ways of what we truly need (motivation ??
Anyways, I am going out for quests and mainly to walk to burn the calories I stocked eating too much during the winter lol

update : I walked 13866 steps !

I am motivated! Also going with R is super fun and nice


the place where I belong to

ok ok ok I spend the most chill evening ever, drawing on digital like before when I was kid in my teenager room
And we also started to draw yaoi on a page and it was insanely fun


I FINISHED MY EXAMMMM HIYAAAAAA


I want to draw online as SOON AS POSSIBLE on magma when my exam finishes tomorrow : https://magma.com/art-jams/live


This is not a myth... when you start missing too much rendez-vous, people stop inviting you. This is not a myth and maybe they just forget you exist because you're quiet. And you're quiet because you're just your room longing death

7°c. There is sun reflecting on the white walls in the kitchen. It dazzles my eyes while I am studying my last exam for tomorrow (on SATURDAY, who is cruel enough to do this-), then I will have one week to rest.
It's pretty warm under the veranda, near the garden, I saw little birbs. They're so cute and downy. Red little robins.
I wonder what I am going to do during next week, there will be strikes in the capital. The governement decides to cuts all the the allowances granted to the unemployed, leaving them without solutions or security so the population is angry, very angry. I might be stuck in town, I wanted to go to the post-office maybe, and resume the book I am reading. Revolution can be quiet, revolution can be in every act you do.

Every kind act is a protest.

This page is a tribute to all pandas, but also is a new little clean space where I will share things on the web. 

Journaling is so much fun !!!
A lovely friend offered me little panda stickers and I adore them so much I has to scan them. My friend who just started coding is so kindhearted, and everything they do and bring in the world are a blessing for the heart, soul and eye (they're really unique)
Every friend who does journaling, scrapbooking and like to read and write, and have similar activities (calligraphy (+bonus point of dokidoki  if they started doing lettering before knowing me), stickers making, collecting trinkets) or like the same references as me are immediately accomplished to be my friend. It's like, they validated the test. You do art ? Let's be forever friend, I will support you if you support me, we will do art together. You like Nitro+Chiral ? You're totally deranged, but I love that, you understand real suffering and I get that, you're my bro now, we can meet even if you live at the opposite polarity of the earth.

Don't mind about me lalala
Might ramble about episodes and tasks

PANDAPAAAN

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(Sorry but i am just very shy irl and get very very easily embarrassed /// haha)