did I broke the link -
changed name of the page because u all smell furry


Woke up at 7am
We are in February!
I took a nap yesterday night and woke up super early !! I am now in a good mood, aligned with the sun to write, drink an earl grey, try to draw a little bit. It's my last day of vacation. I should focus on something I really want to do.
I want to write a mairu-mailuu to Wave. asap, because I will probably disappear from magma from now... it makes me so sad. I want to gift them something, I started to draw our OC on paper as well.

I know that I can connect my tablet everytime I need it. I am not losing  I am not losing

For the past years, I haven't drew much, no energy nor time after uni. I told myself it was okay, because I need to learn new things, and I applied in my other universe, the things I've learnt. Characters are really dear to me, there is something I want to tell through them... but also help other to understand me and understand diversity. I still want to support the people I shared drawing with. Caring, reaching out ; it's so important.

update : aww got a nice interaction with S on neocities.org, I hope the stars will align 🌟 and we will draw together! also I wish they will find a stable solution for their accommodation, moving out is always a challenge. I hope all the best for this little person 


When your uni schedules align well ✨

I think what makes me drown in stress are the unforeseen circumstances
But its inevitable, it always happens
It is likelife is testing you of how you can handle situations
uguuh a day en français blabla
j'la sens un peu mid cette journee
bien que jai commencé à lire Histoire de ma vie de G. Sand, c'était très bien, peut être que j'aurai du rester dans mon lit ajd
j'arrete pas de delayer des quests
Aucune indication que mon bus passe, greve partout, jsuis coincé là où j'suis grrr

oh bus passe
16:25 à cet instant, je me suis dis que la luminosité était very soft et lovely
je suppose qu'iel est à peine en train de s'éveiller 

suis passé à la poste ! ai réussi !! deux lettres en chemin ~

ensuite, soirée jeux de société, cartes Magic
outfit : chemise avec des roses bleues, t-shirt metal, chrome hearts necklace, pantalon gris et queue de loup ~~~ echarpe avec des BIGPAWS je transpire le furry et y a des loups sur ma veste
il fait froid dehors
je me suis trompet de chemin 
ai trouvé un puffy stickers penguin et étoile par terre
ai montré mon tattoo à mes amis !!!

je rejoins D ce soir, pas de concert,
est-ce qu'on va zoner ?
ai bu un caprisun de sous marque, on a mangé du riz grillé et D m'a raconté son voyage, le SEL DE FOURMI jpp
on m'a racompagné à la maison en voiture (blessed by the adult life)

Ce soir c'est Clean Dishes... (j'ai pété le lave vaisselle en plus je crie)




After god (manga)
must dig




man

https://magma.com/d/N2z5SOxLKF

2°c, 30-01-26
I am so happy to go home to be connected tonight

Rues grises et flammes dans mon esprit
update : my tattoo is perfect !!

i just
i just broke my headphones in the street NOOOOOO and passing near the person I find very cool in my town (butch queer cashier)
double NOOOOOOO

1) inondation dans la cave 💀
2) ai pété mon casque dans la rue 💀
3) ai croisé mon crush avec mon casque débile et pété sur la tête (sayonaradios) 👁️
4) nouveau ttt today 👁️ flamme parfaite par Ez le sanggg
5) run after the bus and got it ! Bought catfood
6) Wave drew a traditional art of our dowgs !!!!!!! & they are so cute !!!
7) drew until 4am because it was so much fun, we made a mini convention with cosplayed gayfruits and balls


11:13, 1°c, 29/01
Going to take a drawing break ?? My arm hurts so much uuuwuuhouu
Today I am getting a new tattoo so I am EXCITED

magma worm is eating my brain and it's eating my old parasites
So happy that I am drawing again. It is soooooo satisfying and comforting, really. Drawing is so fun, sharing drawing and seeing people interacting aaahhh I missed that feeling. I made some friends online and they are very dear to me
I think it heals something inside my corpse ; actual habits started to fade because all my focus goes on drawing for & with people. I stopped being sick not eating or eating too much, I am just scribbling on my tablet and drinking tea, even if my eyes hurrrrts, my mood and mental state seems stable




Went to sleep at 5am, got up at 2pm, 4°c, end of January
It was sooo much fun we drew OCS online with Wave and they're so amazing
we chatchatted about our lives and random things, hopefully i am not awkward as before and know how to handle a conversation because I was sweating the whole five hours we were drawing together 
We have 6 hours time difference so it was very late when I drag myself to bed zzz

This morning, I read a little bit my book ; scelled the letters I was about to send to my friends, drank earl grey 
random funny interaction :
My roomate bro came in my room and said "i am a merde humaine" because they postponed and cancelled all their appointments today (and so did I hahahahaha), we are fucked up but it's so fun that I can relate with bro... same house, same shit

Didn't go the post office in my town yet : they move it AT THE TOP OF THE HILL so I am very lazy to go and it's cold outside brrr

I miss my friends
but I feel so loved and it makes me all sweet and kind



Craving mandarinaaaa & tiramisu hehe dessert time ! & magma !


I validated my law course... I am becoming an academic weapon.


1°c 1:21 end of January
It feels weird to notice how much you can change in... one week, one month, three months, six months... one year... 
Consistency isn't eternal, time always moves, period time changes but the things I enjoyed (still like them) and activities I used to do never last long.
I feel unstable because of this. Why am I not able to keep the same diary ? the same place ? the same handwriting ? Why am I not able to keep the things like they were before ?
Humans are constantly evolving every day. They develop themselves. They must change and move.

A motionless swamp is destined to sleep forever. Still water brings diseases.

And so to avoid death, you must move on ?




-2°c 13:15 Today it's Monday. Yesterday I walked a looot with my friend, we went to a cafe after our painting session and it was sooo cold outside but it was so fun also. E offered us the coffee because she was working there ! She is very very lovely. When I wanted to loudly thank her, everybody was speaking at the same time so I wasn't sure she heard and it makes me feel internally awkward : do people hear me when I speak ?
My voice is pretty low I think, I met many asian with the same low tone as me

Doodling until late


I slept the whole morning because I spend such a fun night !! I connected to draw online and met the person who drew Slow Damage characters with me yesterday!!! We drew OC (our dowgs) together the whole evening, and honestly I was still blushing when I covered my head under the sheets in the bed.

I wonder if we could be friend or something ~

Today we're going out to paint ! LET'S GO!
Since I discovered the steps counter on my phone (phone I must clean), I enjoy to walk more. This is a very "digital native" feature which adds a real will to move and has consequence of my mobility, I know, this makes me sounds very dependent of technology and question the essential ways of what we truly need (motivation ??
Anyways, I am going out for quests and mainly to walk to burn the calories I stocked eating too much during the winter lol

update : I walked 13866 steps !

I am motivated! Also going with R is super fun and nice


the place where I belong to

ok ok ok I spend the most chill evening ever, drawing on digital like before when I was kid in my teenager room
And we also started to draw yaoi on a page and it was insanely fun


I FINISHED MY EXAMMMM HIYAAAAAA


I want to draw online as SOON AS POSSIBLE on magma when my exam finishes tomorrow : https://magma.com/art-jams/live


This is not a myth... when you start missing too much rendez-vous, people stop inviting you. This is not a myth and maybe they just forget you exist because you're quiet. And you're quiet because you're just your room longing death

7°c. There is sun reflecting on the white walls in the kitchen. It dazzles my eyes while I am studying my last exam for tomorrow (on SATURDAY, who is cruel enough to do this-), then I will have one week to rest.
It's pretty warm under the veranda, near the garden, I saw little birbs. They're so cute and downy. Red little robins.
I wonder what I am going to do during next week, there will be strikes in the capital. The governement decides to cuts all the the allowances granted to the unemployed, leaving them without solutions or security so the population is angry, very angry. I might be stuck in town, I wanted to go to the post-office maybe, and resume the book I am reading. Revolution can be quiet, revolution can be in every act you do.



Every kind act is a protest.

This page is a tribute to all pandas, but also is a new little clean space where I will share things on the web. 

Journaling is so much fun !!!
A lovely friend offered me little panda stickers and I adore them so much I has to scan them. My friend who just started coding is so kindhearted, and everything they do and bring in the world are a blessing for the heart, soul and eye (they're really unique)
Every friend who does journaling, scrapbooking and like to read and write, and have similar activities (calligraphy (+bonus point of dokidoki  if they started doing lettering before knowing me), stickers making, collecting trinkets) or like the same references as me are immediately accomplished to be my friend. It's like, they validated the test. You do art ? Let's be forever friend, I will support you if you support me, we will do art together. You like Nitro+Chiral ? You're totally deranged, but I love that, you understand real suffering and I get that, you're my bro now, we can meet even if you live at the opposite polarity of the earth.

Don't mind about me lalala
Might ramble about episodes and tasks

PANDAPAAAN

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(Sorry but i am just very shy irl and get very very easily embarrassed /// haha)