Winter - Quiet - Serenity

bruhh


This january month waS WILD YO
Developped technostalgia and the wanderer project !!!
Finally !!!! Started to write some articles... and some interviews......



La responsabilité d'un enseignement :

Si la méthode permet de rendre doués des individus, il n'en demeure pas moins que si l'idée est corrompue alors le disciple doué peut perdurer la corruption de la pire façon que des individus médiocres.

Solution : éducation civile, aplanir les différences et entretenir une égalité entre les individus.


i forgot what i wanted to say




29.01.25 : HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAAAAR !!!!!! This year we're celebrating the year of the wooden snak !!! SNAKEEE

28.01.25 11:10 : 
Right now I have a throat inflammation.

Learning LSF !!

Some time ago I had an accident and one of my ear stopped hearing, it was completely numb with the sensation of a layer covering my tympan, I feel like living in an aquarium. I thought of a ruptured eardrum and I read that it can take several heal. I stayed 1 week like this and my ear started bleeding a lot, so i went to see a doc. They couldn't determine what was happening (that uni doctor has pretty weird maneer honestly) but I paid the full price consult lol ofc. and land back home feeling lost. I went to some loud music events (concerts, raves) and the doc told me that I had scars in my ears. My grandmother was deaf and my mother has the cristaux in the ears, my brother often has otites and ear infections... so... I started to panick and have to lear sign language before it's too late.


"so uhhm yeah i am absolutely in communication and journalism fac of uni yeah"
*going non-verbal*

27.01.25 : Supposed to have a meet with a friend today but feel like we will postpone again and again because we are like this.

Got a answer from hideto in email box ! it makes me happy

Dreamt about a sunny place... and gummy snakes.

i fell asleep and woke up at 15h lol

What stops me to start my day at 5am ?
i feel sleepy...
4:48 i can't sleep. i plan to make bread ...
back to my bunker

26.01.25 13:35 : went to a punk night market with Mogo and it was so much fun
Sometimes I feel very very blessed you have such cool friends that invite me to go outside (the ninja cat that i am stopped night partying cause they go to sleep at 21) and we took the train all together with sum others friends (Cam & Noir & D & Mogo & their crushh) actually we were selling stuffs, my throat is dead because music was good and loud and you have to speak up clearly and high pitched if you want to be understood 
That's for real a good practice, i had moments of pure intense connection with sum friends also and i maked myself a way to the backstage because I wore a custom big mask and had to put my bag under security, SO I TRIED TO SPEAK WITH SIGN LANGUAGE and it was interesting

not sleeping for a night make my body shake and nauseous blehh but nice moments



^ me to my brother at 4am
we speak french because it's funny but we're asian nerds



25.01.25 : Even after all this years, I still struggling to express myself. My words won't come out when I speak, I feel stupid, i feel like i should shut up. forever. But when I listen at people i think they sound so stupid. and then i am telling myself that i should react and shout loudly why I think it is. I mean, some people easily say what they think, their opinions even if it's absurd or wrong, why am I not able to do so ? Telling the truth, the very back of my thoughts, reflect the realness of the world. Why can't I ? What am I missing ? I think it's practise. I am so much more comfortable with writing. How can I practise orality? I don't want my neighbours to hear me. I am scared to ask my friends to hang out. I don't want to be deceptive and to be deceived. The idea of having someone close to me make me want to hide, i will be angry at myself.

24.01.25 : FINISHED WINTEREXAMMMMS RRRAAAHHH finally i can REST hope the results will be not too bad lol cause i am lazy and haven's study like i should... Also because I focus a lot about other things
I sewed some gloves with fabric scraps yesterday while watching Clannad. The story of Yoshino is HEARTBREAKING and i can relate to it so much. Also watching the evolution of their lives... makes me feel hopeful.
Wish I could see some friends, but in another way i feel so good being alone. I'm reading some books, eating a little bit. Not speaking, to anyone. I love that

Bought this weird little apple today. it's called nashi pear, it's not an apple!

Have you ever tried to cut your apple like this ?
it changed my life.

Should i try nekoweb ?? leaving this link here so i remember
https://nekoweb.org/

how rp fucked with my mind, sanity and friendships. some years ago, I ve made some online and irl friends who were into roleplay (physically and by messaging), since i was young, i always have been curious to know what was it. My partners were older than me and we read a book that makes us start, a really cursed book. Actually i joined after they began their unhealthy game, the fact that, the characters of the book commit a murder, and they all suffer from psychological mental issues. At first, i didn't really like that book, it has been written by an American idolatred woman, named Donna Tartt. The language wasn't what I expected from a 600 pages book, Frankenstein quality's is highly better (english) and only has 200 pages. Plus, I don't really feel close of the environment, the fact that they were students (and i worked as a teacher) learning history of a linguistic in a worse way possible. The partners I had are both very close, and both of them really suffer to the point they aren't conscious of what they do. They overreacting, acting all the time. You don't know where is the limit. You don't know what is a game or not. I was pretty shy and easily manipulated back then I think. I wanted to have friends, and they both abused me, verbally but also physically. They wanted to try one of these rituals that happened in the book. And it was basically an - orgy. I am not the same genre as them, I was feeling things so much i became the image of the characters I was representing, sick, unsecure, yet innocent and the lamb in the fangs of wolves.
We got a dispute after 3 or 4 rounds of our meetings. One started to get jealous, it was pure misinterpretation. The older one is also a teacher, but way more older than me and has a god complex. They were so busy they dumped me, but kept their other friend close, because after all they started it together. I tried to be very patient, kind, and comprehensive, they were both so so in their little world they haven't noticed. This is so wrong. Respect has been crushed.



idk i just found this


YAYAYYYYY FINALLY D-1 AND I AM DONE WITH MY EXAMS !!!! WINTER BREAK WINTER BREAKKK


Journaling my dream on hydra truly keeps me sane... I need to know about that girl who was sleeping on my laps......

17.01.25 19:16 Took my monday off to code on journalism project ! i have no one to share it with but i zm truly do happy to work on it !! it looks so concrete and also i created a new Neocities :  technostalgia, the domain name was free ! so so happy, i love this word and concept !!
I must work seriously about this journalism project to push myself into interactions and interview people i admire. i finally finished my article about streetart !!!!!! I now can concentrate on others articles (king of Kowloon, ASCII art, and more), communications and interviews, collaborations... and also designs. The hardest part is to put everything together (medias, phone friendly) and the contents. Chose pertinent words, images. I am allowed be too much in documentation !! what a relief haha. I have learned how to reference and search open access article at uni and to write with objectivity and neutrality language.

I am absolutely not studying like I should because I don't see the point of losing my mind to overwork on something that doesn't make me more happy and inspired about existence.I mean, i looove going to uni and learning, but a full month of exam is too much. Way too much. but,,,I discovered that I have one week of REST yaayy after exams, and I didn't knew about it !! 
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Reading "The guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all"

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The illusion of not having choice by the outline drawn by who wants to lock you.
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me whenever someone ask me  anything
(i only open up online)

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"if i stop drawing i will get diarrhea"



hilarious

17.01.25 19:16 Took a nap. 
Am I doing things wrong ? The answer, the only pne who knows the answer is yourself. There is nothing wrong if you think you did your best yourself. Your act reflects what you are.

very cute interactions at uni :
a group of big dudes went out and the tallest one just ruffled the head of his friend who looks so gloomy 

found a pen on the ground
it still works and it's very satisfying to write with it

16.01.25 10:19 I can feel stability ; in my mood because I sleep a lot. In the evening, i just go in my bed even if i wish I had the energy to listen to music or to draw ; it's too cold out of my bed, anyways.
And so the early morning, I wake up before my alarm and I just curl up, and tell myself "it's for my good sake".

I feel so protected by my own independence.
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Sometimes you wake up, and you feel so pure. Protected.
Goodwill is on its way. Everything will be in order. Harmony.
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was sad. this makes me happy. puffy stickers 


omg hamie
just found this img on nc of someone i really enjoy to visit their site i hope they don't mind,
this image juste really make me haooy

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"Mieux vaut ne pas trop s'en faire. Si tu forces trop les autres, il y aura toujours quelqu'un pour se rebeller, et trop d'enthousiasme apporte des résultats négatifs." Clannad s2 ep05
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15.01.25 16:36 Exam this morning. I rushed to uni, my phone felt from my pocket, i lost it. i noticed and rushed back home. Two italians people was in a street and  help me to call my device and to find a solution. Someone answered after two rings and told me they leave it at the entrance of the building they are working. I went there to get it back, and hopefullyyyyy I GOT IT BACK !!!!! i rushed back at uni againnn and i arrived late at the exam, around 17min late. The limit is 30min, you can not pass it after this delay. I arrived panicked, Othman was there and also was my french teacher, she was kind.
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I really want to play guitar !! 
My dream one is an Ibanez AS53.........


14.01.25 21:36Today i slept until 16h, i was very very tired. I was supposed to take that day off to study, but i am exhausted !! and cold. I allowed myself to eat chocolate.

13.01.25 23:58 Did you know that, sending a book to someone is kind of leaving an engraving print in the mind forever ? Like letters are inked in paper, it will never leave. Never.
And there is this one person sending and offering me books.
And I also offer books.
And we are marking each others hearts and souls. Quietly. slowly. secretly.

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just a warning :
be too much to people and they will fear you
be not enough and they will forget everything about you
be constant
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i wish i was someone's muse

10.01.25 17:34Today I woke up early because the sunlight was so bright, and the sun was so intensely blue. It snowed two days ago. I woke up and finally had the time and envy to read that letter i received. Breathtaking, urge to answer and to be there for them. I started to write an answer. no rush.
Then I took a shower, the need to purify has come, i wore a soft fabric and dressup in white to go outside, stepping in the snow. It's so rare, it was my only goal for today.
Went to recyclerie, and found a really oretty fabric to sew a cover for a hobonichi.
Softness, softness.

I don't want anything else than that.

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update : i lost some hp while drawing instead of sleepin yesterday might

09.01.25 3:06 wish i could use my free time to draw, or code more projects or doing anything inspiring but......
yeah

i want to eat galette aux amandes, but it costs so much and i don't have anyone to share it with

09.01.25 17:34 Ca fait des heures que j'essaie de taffer mais j'arrive à rien faire efficacement, j'ai trop froid et j'suis déconcentrée, j'ai pas faim mais j'ai envie de soulever mon frigo et d'avaler tout son contenu
update : lanaged to study philosophy today. very interesting process
It's about the debate between rhetoric and dialectif of Platon in the Gorgias. The pre-exam question was about le bien or the goodness as a finality (telos)
One thing I find very very interesting is about how philosophy leads the mind to reflect about virtuosity and wisdom
well it's late, my eyes hurt and i will not write the entire thesis here hehe

09.01.25 3:07 Just got a vivid childhood memories of my mom puking in the toilet at night

Using Duckduckgo searching engine to use Yandex.ru again. Found nice comfy films... 

Modern History exam went well !! Discussed with Anon after school, that's a nice thing about today. Also little Lé was here and we chatchat at the tramstop. I wish I stayed more but it started snowing when i almost arrived home.
08.01.25 21:24

Studying studying studying
pay the rent
working working working
not enough to pay the rent
must move, must change my lifestyle 


07.01.25 20:52 Freezing !! Called my landlord and he unlocked the heating system that was not working at my floor and i have now some WARMTH. yaayyy ! he is so kind also... I should work hard, study hard and being the best human to reach this kind of person. i don't want to deceive
But I really must be careful because the heating cost rise so much here where I live. more than 11% of the price of energy. That is so much. almost 30x/month

" TECHNOSTALGIA "
reveals how resurrect, temporalize, nostalgize, restore, rehabilitate, remember, reflect, conserve, eternalize, memorialize, physicalize, daydream, journey, mask, elevate


Discovered Déhà 's collaboration with Kim and it's making me feel alive
Also their project is so clean, adore Averses
Digging into metal-archives again... never noticed that site is pretty good there is even a forum

No self-loathing anymore !

Last year, i've been negligecting my presence on social media, because i realised that i don't really need it anymore
I can feel freedom, and i can feel that i am saving my life by studying hard for my future.
To be honest I am still blankly scroll and close the app and open it again and scroll then being overwhelming with all the pics in my camera roll i should have post so i still have a restricted account where i sometimes manage to post archives but i actually hate the facts people follow me or can see that i am still here/active. I want to disappear. but i am an addict somehow and have a constancy with my posts (why, this is so contradictory-)
Anyways, i unfortunately can not delete my internet existence so i keep feeding the cult
i hope no one perceive me wrongly because i do


Dreamt vividly (dream diary on hydra)
Watched "Coin Locker Girl" (2015) and it's good.




03.01.25 19:40 Finished reading "Le dernier jour d'un Condamné" de Victor Hugo. It makes me so angry and sad 
Discovered that one of my teacher is manifesting an wide business interest in political (parti de droite), bruh. yea yea, alright alright, politics should not have any influences on your own ideologies, nor bring hate or empathy. Whatever.
Something is going wrong with this society and the country were i live is drowning under its debts and there is an inflation of economy. Electricity's price is going to rise madly, but also the rents, the public transports, postal services.
We must develop another economy... how ? Something alternative ? staying connected and in touch with the reality of this world helps. I am not an activist. I want to help, i want to be useful and to bring solutions. I am an architect (mbti) and i know there is hope, i want to believe in... Use your head, use your head.
People who rules the world are normal humans. They physiologically are the same as you and me. The ideals, point of views, opinions, educations, environnements, influences, history are the elements that structures the ideologies of human. But we are fundamentally all the same, with the same needs, vices and vertuosity. Anyways, humans are all the same. 


I DISCOVERED THE ORIGINAL SONG THEY'RE PLAYING IS THIS ^


02.01.25 22:03 omg happy new year !?! i'm retarded
My new yo eve was SO LOVELY, i thought i catched a cold but i recovered from it so fast, the little one i dated has a SUPERFASTWARMER heater in their place and everything was so comfy. We watched films, talked a lot, smoking then went outside to see fireworks and then we just came back inside and smoke again like a regular day, it was so comforting !!! We watched Junkhead (2017) ! I am obsessed with their guitars and home's decorations (they work in antique shop), they're so kind and lovely they teached me how to make lasagnas............. 7friends especially Seven-post-meridiem, knowww it's my real fave comfort food omg. I will never forget !!!!!!!!!!!!! I also randomly tried guitar and from instinct made the chords of Yukio in 青い春 (2001), this is so cool !!!!!!!! i am happy. starting the year inspired, loved, full of hopes.

We took a blank paper and wrote our successes, regrets and resolutions.
It was a good exercice !! I didn't had precises ideas but then I filled the entire sheet. I must do a ikigai soon.


31.12.24 15:42 Last day of the year. it went so fast feeewww... I used to make a list of serious things that i succeed or regret but this time my intropsection will be mental. I'm having a date tonight. Looking for being very vyre drunk and losing myself in anyone's sheet. I need warmth. I need to be loved. I need to be disrespected and deshumanised sometimes. I need someone who will push me against a wall and scalp my skin to blood. I need it i need it. My ideals are high, i hope to be fulfilled (there's nothing sane about these thoughts)

VLG OGZEOQZOEJGQOEZGJ

This winter is calm and cold COLD



29.12.24 21:58
Was thinking about M today. 1)mejibray 2)mr robot 3)my ex-partners
Started Tsurune season two and i am very hyped !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

28.12.24 21:21
Finished Clannad. Finished Tsurune.

My life is full of colours again

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Cleaned the windows. Feel pure.

28.12.24 14:13Got a pretty depressed time lately but right now there is a big sun ☀️ ! I catched a cold, there is no heat in my house and I feel anxious about me coming back to my mother's house because of my relationships failures. She talked to me about independancy and that I shouldn't depend on anyone. sighs. I have reminescences of the hopes a person i met in my artclass then traveled far away (we started discussing almost every day online), they were supposed to come back in the capital and live with me but... They prefered to make their own choices and live by their own. I struggle paying rent, and maybe it pushed me under pressure to find a roomate for that. I feel numb, I feel bad for becoming like this. But i found a solution, studying give me opportunity to earn a little but of money to stay in this appartement. Right now there is sun. I feel relieved to be alone, no one can influence my mood, i do whatever i want whenever i want but... I know, this is not sane. And the better for me and my family is to come back soon. With all my craps, my collection of items. Maybe my mom doesn't want it neither my brother, but i feel like a magpie, feeling the urge to pick shiny things and bring them back at house. I feel it. I think it's the best than keeping running away (even if my mom has tendancies to be harmful to me because of our differences and interpretations of life) from my past. I must come back, give my best, assuming my presence in their lives. I can offer beautiful things. I believe. I can help. But I also can be free to make my own choices (bad or good, they will offer me experiences, knowledge, I will learn about it. But I must risk) I am an adult, yet still a child-hearted. I don't want to change my mother's mentality because I know she wouldn't trust someone younger and destabilise her build up confidence, so all I can do is to accept and elevate minds, being credible enough to speak about truth and about what I know the best.

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I feel so happy yet so lost and sad, why shouldn't i jump under a train very soon ?

my cursor being a gnome

i can't stop laughing

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24.12.24 11:24 listened to lifelover all night
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Anyone's up for a cutter fight in the forest... now ?

Watched 1984. So good. So real. Being critique and careful.
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Mr. Robot : Dom & Darlene (might spoil)



Back again at this. Eliott Alderson mood...



Perceive the positive and the negative (of consequences) !
was my fatal error to one of my exam

Also restores concepts in their contexts and eras (knowing history)

22.12.24 9:55 It's winter break. I must study but I prefer to draw and in less than 3 days I made 10 different drawings. (Usually make 3 artpieces a week)

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bro stop whining i need to aim the top...............
Learning from my failures !
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Sometimes, you just have to accept how you work. How you are fundamentally built and what are your potentials.

Average, half-way, sometimes mid mistake.
For some reasons, I feel like i don't have any access to succeed in art or at school. I am always 'not too low, not too high' in any classments. But I think i'm starting to understand. Generally, I am doing things how I interpret them, maybe I don't get how extending logic algorithm functions or how to answer to request. I want to share my art, share my knowledge , being able to explain and synthesised in my mind with my understandings I've learned. I noticed that people with notoriety are becoming too confident and become lazy or end up ruining themselves. Being in the average makes you in the norms of discretion. It makes you a fighter, right ? It makes you constant. There is no luck for people like me. I just work, overwork to reach a personal goal. Nothing more, nothing less.

20.12.24 Today was a lovely day, I woke up at 7:19 and literally had 15min to take a shower, dress up and go to uni for my rhetoric class (friday 8am morning !! last lesson before winter break) then I talked to M who did the eloquence contest (I haven't written anything about it yet ? It was a challenge done by our teacher to present a discourse based on a fictional or real character. Only 7 participants and I chose to write and speak about Marla Singer from the book Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk. I found interview videos about the author and he is actually a very odd and good rhetorician! We have to write a praise and a blame and present one of them. So I did it, shaking and sweating, and i had to talk in a huge microphone I was stressed and had struggle to read my text lol the jury said critiques to help us to become better and they said I look like not very in ease in my body AND THAT'S TRUE. Anyways, good experience and so I met that friend, M-) and studied chinese linguistics. We talked about calligraphy, origin of handwriting in Asia and Europe. Did you know that the vertical sinograms is a cause of the support ? The writers used to write on bamboo and the fibers where this side so it was logically easier to write this side. Also they read from right to left, and thats why the original side of manga, for the europe culture is inverted. Also in cursive italian lettering, the writer focus on the golden number to find perfect shape of harmony.
Some cool informations about writing.

Then my friend I arrived and we went to drink coffee (pumpkin latte 🫖) and eat pancakes 🥞!! It was such a lovely day. 

18.12.24 00:46What the fuck is going on. My neighbour knocks at my door (I recently had a dispute with her because she asked me to remove my "shits" from the letterbox and she lied to me saying that she hasn't throw my letters when she did. And also my plants...) to ask me if I want to come with her and her bf partying (they're 20+ years older). But I have exams, I was in my ugly winter pyjamas and SHE WAS DRUNK af.
The only one person I want to see is Ago
18.12.24 23:59Just in FRONT of my window, I heard people yelling and seem to be violent in the voice so I slided to see and I saw two cops arresting a guy who was already on the ground, one of the cop hits the head with his knee and i was so in shock, so I opened the window and ask " what is happening ? ", the guy who heard me said out loud " help me help me " (but don't have context, I can't help criminal in fact, i don't know him) so when the second van of police arrived that I just said out loud "I saw one of the cop hitting the guy's head with his knee " and closed my window. That's all, I am not a savior. But I just can't stay still when I see violence and injustice. 
Try to act wise and with caution, with prudent wisdom, with all your legitimicy you can inform with exactitude what you saw. No adverbs, no preferences. No exageration - it's the bet way to have a objective / neutral control and verification on your acts. - Denouncing cops, authority or any other kind of dominance's violence and abuse is a right. In my country, the white man privilege is a PROBLEM because it classifies people and create UNBALANCED INJUSTICES between humans. But also hegemony (=is in common parlance an unchallenged domination.) and repression (=voluntary rejection. Action of repressing an act deemed harmful at a given time and in a given society, set of measures taken for this purpose.)This is not humanity. This causes death.
Another one problematic is the "ACAB" concept. It means "All cops are bastards" in manifestation against dominance by authorities. The ideology surely is linked with injustice and the idea of counter repression and social stratification but it talks about violence. You can not have a peaceful result if you let the hate and anger rule the world. The expression has nonsense other than low insult and even has a racial connotation. So i don't get it...

Been thinking about this a lot.

18.12.24 18:11Today with Anon, we went to repare my glasses because i blind. Then we went to Schleiper to buy some furnitures !! And books ! Then we went to a bakery and I ate the best pastry i ever ate in MY LIFE, for real it was the best thing ever omfg it has a 8 shape and a pudding heart taste like WTF it was so good i cry

17.12.24 22:29 Dropped some things to sell spontaneously on my instagram story
I've been digging in 16colo.rs archives and found so much cool stuffs.

(thoughts...)
We all deserve to be loved  noticed, respected. Happy, protected, peaceful.
Curling under blanket. Softness
Stop running after things you can't have
16.13.24 00:08 Being nostalgic, thinking about スウィートプール visual novel (Sweet Pool)  The sountracks are so good... Truly make me feel something odd, melancholic, close and so distant from a time I can not and will never catch again somehow. But the thing is I truly lived through it for a time, the history will always be a part of me. It engraved something in my mind, something personal, important.
I also feel something when I watch Kyoto Animation animes, recently I've been watching Tsurune for no particuliar other reason that I adore and love the colours and animation of this studio, and surprisely adored and related with Seiya, this character truly has something common with my personnality and it's interesting to watching how someone introvert and serious deals in a group of teammates... 

Back to Diving Deep and fade from SP, I'm feeling blue.
My sleeping schedule has been weird lately. I actually do many naps. I feel blue. Lonely. Melancholic.
Someone said that sleeping a lot is good for the skin and the mood.
Lack of sleep. Oversleep. My rhythm isn't good. Yell me to sleep !!
15.13.24 1:35 Took a nap when I arrived home and woke up at 22:35, hungry. Ate vietnamese flat rice noodles and an apple watching Tsurune (because literally bring me the sunlight I need)

15.13.24 19:32 Someone said I was charismatic but I honestly really want to be that person (totally opposite look)
Also, alcool hits hard, I am sleepy in the tram. 
15.12.24 14:32 Decided to go out to see a friend, but they are late so I have to wait 50min at the station. People in the capital are desperate, they have diseases, ask for help, they calls you out every meter to ask you for a cig or money. Hopefully I dressed all black so I don't have interpellations about my outfit or whatever (because when I dress in egl and wander out, people just stare, or comment about your fit or even follow you)... I am anxious that I can't decide where I can go to hide myself. So I visited my old friend who has an antique shop near that old church. He is an old person, but he happily recognise me ! Then I came back to the station to find my friend, she arrived and we walked and talked and wandered in the Christmas market, we drank warm wine. It was lovely. Our discussions always are fruitful, she said something about "la lumière intérieure" and "l'âme". We always have interesting spiritual exchanges. I offered the golden book about Taoist thoughts and she surprised me offering a calligraphy box with old nibs. How lovely she is... We also chatted about our relationships and how unique is a human being, inevitably separate and individual in this society. 
14.12.24 19:49 Ended up curling up in my bed and being unstoppablely comfy
14.12.24 13:54 Saturday, exercised on piano. Studying History of art. This month will be a calm moment, because exams are arriving soon (in January) and I must focus. I love studying, learning, taking break, and styding again. Today, I studied the Wisigoths (Spain), Lombards (Italy), Foyer Irlandais (Irland) and Francs (France) cultures. My notes are on uni page.
13.12.24 17:37 Happy 13/12 ! Today, I bought socks.


reached goal and success to remember to cheer me up lol
- got invited to artist market
- survived winter blocus
- studied a lot and passed my exams
- participated to an organisation of OPAC
- write articles for the wanderer 
- got a calligraphy backpiece
- developed my writings 
- found a red pen at uni
- watched recommended film (Sound of Metal 💔)
- got white teeth and paid meds
- got a light (lampe a pile clicker and canard veilleuse de ma sweet friend)
- finished hobonichi
- spend new years with Cha and made lasagnas
- found a wolf jacket
- played guitar
- sold papers at punk market