Ring Ring !! ringopom ringopoooom

 happy things and silly thoughts :

- i can't stop smiling!
- aaahh spend a lovely day reading 600 pages of law at the library in bâtiment H
- also spend the evening with OPAC friends i love them so much it's so fun to be here with them being silly and dancing and eating very little silly sandwich and shrimp and catering i am so lucky to know them
- drank a hazelnut coffee with a friend who has slavic class with me ☕ 
- cooking mama theme
- puddingflan 🍮 
- tomorrow I'll watch Closed note (2007) again and try to study criminology a bit
- drinking cold matcha with ice cubes and watching Goth (2008) is a pure bliss
- ate a shrekos soup 🌱 is was odd but fun
- vacuumed my room in the morning 🌞
- wooden antique furniture in a bedroom, crochet as a jewerly hanger, plants and plushies
- little glassy cat, piano, guitars
- apple shaped plate !!!
- baked handmade bread 🍞 
- little plates of food prepared, diversity and variety of tastes
- cosy house of Nehir !!!
- everytime i pretend i go to pee i actually cry on the spot
- when they're the oNEEE but they already had a boyfriend/gurlfirend or we are too shy to make it happen : 🕳️
- cronch an apple this morning, life is going on ! let's go ! 🍎
- writing a note at a safe place
- going home early to rest 💤 
- found a panda pencil case in secondhand store !! (i love pandas) 🐼
- had a very lovely afternoon with angelnet 💐
- was sad, bought four plushies, feeling better 🧸
- hitting the malicious laugh in my bed because I go to sleep and this is the best moment
- they do matcha latte at uni !!!!!!!
- the french word : TUNNEL : se prendre un tunnel par quelqu'un = le quelqu'un il fait un monologue inarrêtable.
Parler de quelque chose qu'on affectionne particulièrement : tunnel aussi
- ecopoésie 🌱
- received a package from gloums 💌, slowly opening each little packages and bringing some at school so I can read it and avoid socialization 
- dreamt that I had a little bald spot in my hair and never knew about it and thinking of it makes me laugh so much hahaha it's so stupid
- receiving the newsletter from my little tortue-modite from Vietnam 🇻🇳
- reading, falling in love with everything again
- I feel sorry for the guy behind me I ate too much and I must fart
- emmental cheese et boulettes
- saying : "i am tired i go home" and actually being free to leave because you're an adult ✨free will✨
- writing in bed a sunday morning 🖋️
- made friend with someone who own a studio and can welcome me there
- friend who bring you caprisun 🌞
- someone asking you a question you can answer (little success !)
- bought snacks for my cat 🐈‍⬛ she seemed very happy
- the goofy heartshape with hands
- waffle 🧇 with opacare
- solo soup 🍲 
- character figurines png
- border-styles !! groove, ridge, outset / inset
- going to sleep before 22h50 is a beautiful thing
- enjoying taking the countryside bus because perfect heat (it's cold at home)
- the conducteur qui me connaît m'a laisser monter dans le bus alors que i was late ;w;
- that sun shining in a Monday morning through the window repaired with tape 🌞 
- yabai dattebayo as an expression 
- sun gently waking me up after a long night 



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Take your time to express yourself, justifying yourself is valid

Talk very kindly to others ; always

It's okay to be alone

Notice your progress ;
You went that far and still going.

Don't believe your thoughts after midnight when you had a rough day

When you had a deceitful interaction, remember that : At least, you tried 

Sleeping helps to heal

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Don't know where to write down my thoughts today :
There are so many things I must do, and I keep avoiding responsabilities
Struggle to speak, to express, to have a real volonté de participer
autism autism autism owo



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Sometimes I am sad

Am I contributing to the distance between me and my friends ?
Is it because I am taking another path that lead to unreachable goal ?
Am I cutting my own roots to allow me to fly away ?

I think I have a weird flow
sometimes I feel so uninterested and them super obsessed
Can I just be normal ?

FOMO hits hard, I didn't go to the third day of expo, I feel like miserable and awkward

Sometimes I suddenly have the huge desire to be appreciated, admired, loved (I am just going to fulfill that emptiness with art)

There is no abri-bus at my stop and it started to heavily rain like never, of course the bus was late and I ended up drenched (my shoes will take time to dry...)

Sometimes it feels weird when friends with different energies meet 

Since I've been taking notes on Neocities, I did not really seek to discuss with anyone anymore 

oh no i am so sad
je suis si triste de cette soirée 
je crois que je ne suis pas faite pour accueillir un public vieux
ils m'énervent 
je voulais montrer plein de choses à mes amis, montrer les tapis que j'ai ramené à L et que j'ai nettoyé ce matin de toute mes forces
je voulais pas partir en courant sans même le temps de mettre mes pulls alors qu'il fait si froid dehors
je voulais pas sembler pressée sous le regards indiscrets de ces gens
je voulais pas qu'ils s'introduisent dans nos discussions, je crois que c'est égoïste de ma part de rejeter les autres
je voulais rester pour les concerts
je ne voulais pas que les membres de l'use me voient avec ce chapeau ridicule aue jai cousu moi-même quand j'avais besoin de douceur
je suis épuisée, j'ai mal aux yeux

je pense qu'il faut qu'on prenne notre temps, pas qu'on rush et quon se voir en fin d'aprem
je pense que cane me convient pas 
pas pour ce qu'on construit
on est plus fort que ça 
je lui ai envoyé un msg



Tropaeolum majus
need to grow capucine in the garden



🥮 oranjicake 🥮

blog area don't mind me
  
to do :


+ traitement card id cortisone
- get the package (books ♥️)
+ retrieve boxes at 43
+ pince dans sac
+ spoon pour soupe à 1€ 
- add ringo gifs from glitter graphics
+ get an answer from the service d'état ??? svp
+ draw "Amer Beton" lettering
+ add Prison break, Breaking bad and Mr Robot to the list of series (... I really loved watching Mr Robot, the first ep just throws me in such a gloomy and depressed nostalgic beginning of winter mood...)
+ add pictures with shrooms and apple from the garden
+ buy some tape at shleipah

- go print at uni (+10 A4 and 20 A3)
- eat somewhere à midi ?
- 17h rdv (?) to get 2 meter 80 of metallic chain
- if i ever go to centrum there is this list of things i must do

note for the next themes : soupandpho (november ?) !!! puddingflan (cosy) & matcha-coffee-latte (cosy)!!! pumpkintart !!! frostyneige (december / diving deep obligé, svava cc, dir en grey name piano & higeki... images de loups ouais!) (cool Winamp on synthesis page)!!! clovergarden (from march)!!! tamagoeuf lol, cooking mama png (oh yeah!)!!! !!! panda !! miffy!!!boris! (maybe use mascot for journaling themes, flemme de shriner sorry) /0respect

https://www.papo.jp/comout.html

references :
Saikano (1999 - 2002)
Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun
Bocchi the rock!
Cells at work (live action)
Parasite love (live action)
Orange is the new black ep. 3 (watched)
Bad film 2:23:52 (here)
Yoru wa Tomodachi (bl)
Kids Return (1996)
Vermines (2023)





*Heirloom everything...*









 
 
 wish i could split myself in half