Be kind with yourself Hydrate your plants and skin Respect your needs Laugh and smile Observe life Learn from your mistakes
- Ruby Throat - in the arms of flower Visit the seasonal journaling blog for more. Visit the June Month blog project 🌼 Visit the Autumnal season blog 🍂 ⋆꙳•❅*°⋆❆.ೃ࿔*:・*❆ ₊⋆ Visit the Winter season blog *゚+。・+。゚*。+。* ゚+。・+。゚ Visit the coming back of spring time ~ (+ my wills to move out) Visit the e t e r n a l garden Visit the ~~~ synthesis spring ~~~ Habits I need to adopt in my life : Saying thanks to the world before eating Waking up early (7am) / Going to sleep before midnight Stop listening at music too loudly after 10pm Answering messages / Communicate directly Remember happy moments / Journaling Sharing knowledge Talking using exemples to support an idea (avoid missing subject) Expressing myself in a clear way Learn to be kind with yourself Wearing cute outfits, brushing your hair, caress your own skin softly Smiling at the mirror, smiling to people in street Taking care of your room, clean up your spaceNémésis : Déesse grecque. Fille de la Nuit, elle est la personnification de la vengeance divine qui s'exerce contre les hommes cherchant à échapper à leur destin.Your immortal lover would be Hestia !
As a lover of the goddess of the hearth, you long for stability and emotional maturity in your relationships. You like the heat of love, but not in the fiery way of passion, but the warmth of looking at a lifelong friend.
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What I want for my near future :Finding a peaceful job, being useful for societyKeep collecting items that make me happyMoving in a house with a gardenWalking in the forest and screaming with all my lungsLooking at the clouds Drawing more and being proud of my creations (Letters, enluminures, Still life, skies, woods, moss collages, textiles and fabric fine artworks, serigraphy, printing stickers) Writing letters to friends Admiring beautiful spirited people Taste flowers and lot of tea ! (lavender, lilac) Supporting and being supported Eating seasonal fruits Printing my neocities page in a little fanzine Writing a citizen journalMeeting sensei in calligraphyTravelling and working in travel Making a jfashion and fashion page, asking strangers in street to shoot their outfits Taking beautiful portraits Uploading my photographies from digital camera on NC (done on flickr)Writing a visual novelThinking more positively and sharing good vibes to people Looking at people in eyes Writing beautiful sentence, poems, lyrics Studying new words, concepts Learning more about communication Being able to construct a house, architecture basis Technostalgia project Cultivate eternal & timeless Travel to another country Make a family of friends
Dream diary 夢日記 - Remembered that blue bird, Along this highway, Seen through the window, Who are you looking for ? Lone, Lost The wind through your eardrum Feathers paint with fractals The ground is grey Textured by multiple different gravels Gravitation doesn't help you to fly - The little house Leaning on the edge of its mountain - Surrounded by eyes Camera target Everyone is looking Nobody knows Where you hide Inside your eyelids Wounds are open Mouth is closed You scream - Locked inside a room Green sky, dull colours Pale walls of ashes You look for a key The entire space of the room sticks On your skin - Following the rose Under the opened window Glass are blurry It's slightly raining outside Moving to go downstairs Gorgeous old wooden stairs Draped with a long dusty burgundy carpet Opening the door of the garden Green light and natural rainy scent You're looking for statues - I ate the heart of the lover I ate the heart of the meat I ate the heart of the life And i got sick Liters and liters of bile Flooding from my mouth Is life is taking revenge ? - Blue tower, like my bedsheet The elevator of glass lift me up to find my room There was a water pool with lightning and some attracted vehicles that seemed floating around This place was a dream I couldn't find my room so I searched the keys The heat was getting hotter while I was trying to not panic There was no number on the keys So I had to use my head room n° - Picnic tables in a green gymnasium Primary school, cardboard signed plates Fancy concert fair, eyecatching guitar - Culture market and high temperature Folding carpets, lots of fabric Am I looking to travel ? - A hug for someone who needed it - Falling asleep in a couch somewhere, and waking up in a totally forest-like house Being looking for cold water, or that icecubed apple juice Opening the fridge and seeing so many desserts my friends have done (I asked myself : why so many ?) - Took an apple from a stand and crush the cardboard box because it looks so crispy What the fuck is wrong with me The seller saw me and so I said sorry But I explained that I love apples and the crisps and he laughed (I think) - Summer, swimming pool, wind I miss the good old times - Was back at my mom's house There was gusts of wind Received a video on my phone My brother was here, outside The garden was shattered In front of the house, there was so many flowers and a sheep - Sleepy brother, I offered him a cushion and plaid and opened the window so he can rest - Was in the forest with schoolmates, decided to take another way, I sit on a bench. It was warm, I was smoking, then I saw an old friend Gielis. He appeared, and I received many many messages from N who went visit his parent's house. I miss them. I also wanted to visit my parents. Then I started to walk and some flying bugs were disrupted me, I had to walk back because I forgot my pullover somewhere. Then I saw Juliette running and playing a ball game with my teacher, I walk to their ways, it was a course and I was late so I sprinted and the schema of my solitude was proven that I grew differently. - Central Station. Civil war. The duo splits. I just wanted to take the train to watch the landscapes, with the high tagged and deteriorated walls. Someone was by my side, consider them as my partner. A bomb exploded and I had to run away on the roof of a train someone tried to stab me and I unconsciously seduced them - Metropole, hide myself in an underground cafe/bar. Dark wooden tables, some paper sheets to draw on. Took my markers, and start to write. My friend, Nz was here, I felt his staring gaze in my shoulder, tense as usual. - We were at the Central station, the large station of train. I was about to take the train, like I usually do and watch the landscapes, with the high tagged and deteriorated walls. But this time, I was with someone, I don't know who, it was someone I consider as my partner, as a duo. Someone I trust, like we were in a shounen-ai story. Suddenly, a war exploded and we had to run away and the duo splits. I lost my half. The half of my heart. My half-soul. I jumped on the top of a train and it starts to leave the station. Someone tried to hurt me, but I unconsciously seduced them. I struggle. It hurts. - Landlord came to visit my place, there was people on my house like a kind of school exposé and each of us had to speak or show something. Friends of mine were animating and suddenly the landlord asked me to show something, a song. Something that speaks my mind. It tookd me some time to decide what I wanted to show, and I was angry because I just had a dispute with someone and ended up a toxic relationship. I played " Sleeping beauty " by Akiakane because I always thought it was one of the most beautiful, powerful, and heartbreaking song I ever listened. - We were joining for a date You wore that little ear cat hat And we were going to a fair together - It was rainy outside, my crush was cleaning my house, I was supposed to take a shower and wear a very comfy pyjamas then I went downstairs and There was this cat I never saw that we let entering in the house It has colours of cocoa milk ~~~ Had to move from this house My ex was here, trying to take back all his craps and I helped them Maximalism dusty vintage items ~~~ Often I dream of that attic Very dusty one, with ropes or spider webs all around the ceiling Old wooden furnitures I feel in peace there... Outside stairs from the trees to the garden Events such as flea market in my street People are happy... ~~~ Glass table, a computer and a clean setup, room to install myself at desk Podcasting very funny one What is happening in the others rooms ? ~~~ Authority and dominant system radically decided to poison "people" like us And so they injected in our veins, a slow drug destined to kill us I was laying in a hall with thousand of people, dying but we were monitored in individual bed, Trying to sleep and never wake up ~~~ L+na came hug me and saved me from this melancholy It was dark outside, and I couldn't see anything But I felt her solarity and warm hug ~~~ Je cherchais un endroit où me cacher, entre sa tringle de vêtements ou la table de son salon avec les canapés en cuir de mon père et le sol carrelé froid et poussiéreux... Cachée sous la table de son salon, il m'a trouvée. Il n'était même pas fâché. De savoir que je m'étais introduite chez lui alors qu'il rentrait de voyage On aurait dit la maison de ma tante de la personne que je considérai comme ma tante quand j'étais petite, mais j'étais chez Y ~~~ I dreamt that I was with someone i met in primary school M.Corn et les douches communes orange lightning for public restroom shower (ew) make a very weird vibe ~~~ Les petits insectes crieurs Se cachent-ils 1) dans mon oreille 2) au rebord des fenêtres 3) au dessus de ma tête ~~~ Poèmes en vers dans un très grand livre avec un ours Table en bois et rideaux de dentelles Rien autour ~~~ I went outside my mom's garden and there was a rave party atmosphere but the very end with orange cloudy sky and a fire ~~~ Grand pré, un champ de scout vert Les coussins du cercle OPAC, une structure massive aléatoire et confortable Pleins de moutons et de chèvres !!! Je suis assis.e près de Em On a des amis, on est amis Petite chèvre brune aux pupilles horizontale, on dirait qu'elle sourit presque ~~~ I dreamt that my mother accidentally killed my cat woke up in tears ~~~ Holidays in snow moutains, ski and picnic tables outside Shadi and Juliette and all the crew were there, doing homeworks It was so recomforting to see them, their personnalities haven't changed No one betrayed no one We were the real ones what about now ? ~~~ Lots of bunnies in my garden Feeding the birds ~~~ My brother invited his friends at home And we had a secretive good connection They were all so hungry and i opened the window and give them one yaourt To me and my bro that was hilarious ~~~ Coughing blood Black blood, was tired Exhausted in my own dream I started to cry My friend (J adult) asked me if i was okay I pathetically answered that I feel sick ~~~ Went to ask information in a ski souvenirs shop and the vendor was actually friendly, The urge to play guitar, so we draw a classical one on a paper and struggle to play Long hair girl sleepy on my laps... ~~~ It was Halloween eve and I was hanging out with a tall vampire They wanted to keep me hand for dinner, but it was not a joke I was scared and decided to learn metalwork to make a hand looking jewerly with the "repoussé" technique for them Like an antique metalware hand clip... ~~~ Deep blue skatepark, roller paint everywhere Ashtrays everywhere Large cool sofa Huge playroom Not a shadow of inequality ~~~ Tragic dream cinematic horror Where trains overflow humans To eat we wait at the platforms and murders and accidents are committed with each train passing ~~~ Notebook archives, a white dress young girl at the window (is she committed suicide), big friendly blue spider Reminiscence of lost time ~~~ ring ring Someone is behing your door rong rong You played dead ring ring Everyone knows you live here rong rong Everyone knows you are here ring rong Someone is trying to reach you But you have no idea of their intention You can't hide because everybody knows your show Being abused in your own home ~~~ Endives, trois peluches canards, dessin "Oh waw voir ces peluches rassemblées me font déborder de bonheur !!" ~~~ Made a dream the night of 8 march my stomach hurts and I feel something was living inside but it was to late to get a surgery and remove it So my destiny was just go keep the thing inside me until it kills me, get expulsed by my own body or until it dies ~~~ Pho soup, rice flat noodle : bánh phở Been dreaming of cooking pot under the roof of a last floor (like my previous appartement) Being able to see through the walls, observing the neighbourhood, and even teleport Teleported in another land, far away where spring flourish earlier and enjoying sakura trees blooming at night (or early in the morning) quiet quietly, the petals dance and falling on the streets ~~~ My brother brought me a guitar because I was sick ~~~ Had two helium balloons and was flying ~~~ Was drawing on free paper in the library, is was a busy little room with lots of artists' drawings taped on the walls. I wanted to be part of this. It seems they had spend lot of time all together there. ~~~ Was with a friend (Alys) in a hema store, was wearing a dress without headress, saw this huge kind of sanrio moto / helmet for 6e and decided to share the price and our found together ! ~~~ Was arrested and obligated to stay at my place while my ex (man) was free to fight at the war and leave the house. Had to write letters to communicate, manga looking Received white cute handmade fabric badge which looks like an angel ~~~ Helping to scoop ice cream and making with an egoistic little woman Existential question about my hair, about the lines that separate your hair y'know "My hair won't met me change the side of my bangs, they rule it and I can't decide not control it" ~~~ Devantures clichés de cafés et mots clés (literally a translation in ly head of my wanders on gmaps haha) ~~~ Old facebook posts that makes me laugh ~~~ ughhh tired *not impressed* ~~~ Was living with someone with a big black dog, and he bought a camera with two battery I had and lend them, to make funny souvenirs videos. We checked the options on the camera and there was mini-games on it !! ~~~ Playing rock, scissors paper in vietnamese with my mom !! Also games with snakes themed (?) ~~~ Was at my mom places with a friend, a little boy or 12yo I met and helped from the streets, and we were hiding so my mom doesn't discovers him but we decided to tell her the true and present him to her because we had to left the house and this is the most easiest and honest way. Also it's the best exemple I can show to my young friend : " playing the card of truth" ~~~ Was attached to a contemporain art structure with 5 others people and somehow my alter ego or the girl from Goth was throwing to us razorblade of shurikens and i got touched by one in the stomach and it hurts ~~~ Was on holidays in a little maison de vacances un peu décentrée mais bien fournie en terme d'objets et on hésitait à partir et changer d'endroit pour aller plus dans le centre mais dans un espace + petit Hotel like home... Mes cheveux étaient mouillés ? ~~~ On était en train de sortir pour aller fumer et la porte du couloir des escaliers était différente, modifié comme si le propriétaire avait entamé des travaux dans les finir, ce qui était incompréhensible pour nous et les voisins. Nous croisons les voisins du seconde étage et Lou disparaît en courant jusque dans la chambre pour se cacher sous les couvertures car "elle est timide". J'étais gênée de sentir la cigarette et de discuter de théâtre à mes voisins si gentils. ~~~ Tea party dans un grand château avec des photographes, as usual I bring too much things, bags and trinkets (memories childhood) Some lolita seems more experimented and older, they have their creator brand ~~~ Concert with my older brother, first time I see him in this atmosphere and attitude He seems totally fine. He was with Ryu his japanese childhood friend I just saw in the city ! ~~~ Quartier tendu ou j'entends "après 22h" c'est la fin ! Rencontrer son amie d'enfance (Julie) à une gare avec sa mère à une station où tu es complètement perdue Elle voulait être pédiatre et finalement travaille en économie politique pour un parti religieux ~~~ Had an exam to pass and only got two sheets instead of three and obviously failed also my phone was ringing and I couldn't stop it because this fucking yaoi advertisement ~~~ Really fluffy big cookies i can not eat ~~~ Carnaval, Oranges sanguines, masks of laces ~~~ Dreamed that my cat was sick so I was folding a bed for her ~~~ Mices, little rodents A mouse just hid in the palm of my hand to sleepj'ai rêvé de toi
Contrariété Illogiques Discussion pour démystifier Publicité volante oasis Rémunération Une vie dans les cartons Les shrimps c'est emo Petit enfant frère de Loe Rentrer tard avec une poussette et un gosse "Donne le nous donne le nous donne le nous" Vieil homme bourré qui veut voler le bébé S'interposer kamerron enfant autiste de 20 and Aime dessiner et écrire, à la plume dencre Fille meuf rebeuh hyper Gentille qui écoute d gros rap Convention dans une école Deidara pins Linh dans un cosplay de Yoshi géant qui a trop chaud et sors la tête de son kigurini costume full sized Tendre mon bras et un cutter à quelqu'un Iel m'a juste dégommé les veines Ended up trembling Marcher dans un campus universitaire Sortir par une porte. Deboucher sur une rue, croiser un keuf-graffeur "pxke" Quand je lui ai posé la question qu'il ne gagnait pas assez en faisant son art et son taff de connard de flics il m'a fusillé du regard Il était pas méchant et il dessinait bien, je lui ai proposé de se suicider avec moi si il voulait Je retourne vers le campus, traverse la cafèt. Marcher au soleil S'installer dans un appart, café, endroit Avec des tables et pouvoir dessiner Quel bonheur ! Des amis, des inconnus, tous respectueux Rêver d'art. De lettrages, d'atelier Chuchoter dans l'oreille de quelques-un Examens dans une bibliothèque, à l'étage Arriver en retard, ne pas avoir de place Avoir le bras en sang, qui coule à flot Stand de merches dans une école Mini tasses en porcelaine et gâteaux bijoux Jour de fête et graffiti Cours de classe de chinois / japonais Où il fait utiliser de l'aide vocabulaire de la courbette à oba san pour passer Chat thirty quid bout dans un verre Prendre le train, se tromper de gare, sortir Tout est fermé Rejoindre Chloé ? Ou Tom ? Heureusement je peux commander un café Je crois que j'ai un big panini au poulet pesto dans mon sac ?? Mdr mais que j'ai pas mangé en entier, j'gaspille de la bouffe snif Il pleut dehors Dans la gare c'était le chaos, en sortant je me suis mise sur le côté, je crois que j'ai écrit une story sur snapchat ?? Genre gênant Vivre chez ma maman et avec mon frère Prendre douche Ne pas être en retard Photographie de campagne et de ville aquarelle anglaise avec Emma Épidémie des yeux qui gonflent Sekai, seno, keno, se tenir la main pour se guider Jeune femme la "renonceuse" Ai rêvé que Lou déposait des petits cadeaux jusque chezz ma maman Et que celle-ci lui dérangeait Alors je me suis ouvert le crâne Parce que j'ai ressenti un rejet de mes amis de la part de ma mère et que je me suis sentie isolée et malheureuse Apocalypse dehors Alors on essaie de mourir dans notre sommeil J'étais avec Emma ? Médoc médoc medoc Rêver de Mogo et qu'on aille faire pipi ensemble elle quie parle de son boyfriend Ceder mon appartement Avoir deux épées en plastique Pleins de plumes Jouer à un mini jeu et perdre Faire du stop Entrer dans une voiture Mentir sur son prénom Retirer son bonnet avec un sourire Percevoir par la fenêtre Une usine de ballon Immense cirque en ballon Des tentes pour sans abris en ballon Industrie de ballon pour les enfants et les SDF Discussions légères, sans fond politique "c'est bien" "C'est dérangeant", Quelles sont les causes ? Quels sont les problématiques ? Quelles sont les solutions apportées ? Expliquer expliquer rien n'est de surface J'ai nommé les gens dans la voiture ; Juliette, (je ne sais plus), Benjamin Des prénoms normaux, gentils, qui sonnent passables dans la société Trois personnes noires qui revenaient du ski, du snowboard, activité normale, passable, valise dans notre société Se payer des vacances et rentrer Moi j'avais l'impression de fuir Impression de voir petite Lou quelque part Rassurant Être juste soi-même __ Dormir dans la chambre de ma maman. Changer les draps S'entendre à merveille avec bienveille, bravoure, générosité, compassion et humanité Entendre mon frère se faire engueuler pour de l'argent dépensé pour une fête et de la bouffe et un barbecue ou la vaisselle n'a pas été faite. Ma mère se plaint ___ Story Nobuko délégation interne dans genre de palais ___ Mon frère qui me demande des conseils pour pleurer pour un clip C'est subjectif Souvenirs d'enfants et de pièces cachées sui sont réservées à quand on est petit _____ Mon frère, shy et presenting une expo Nino qui prend de la place, egocentré et bruyant _____ Chez la dentiste avec une espèce de chaise rotationnelle Aller en teuf avec K-Mi Faire une queue de poney avec ses cheveux et plaire Ai rêvé que je jouais au memeo avec des gens extérieur et puis j'étais dans le couloir d'une maison ou y avait une projection de vidéo et je mettais de la crème, avant ça je regardais des graffiti "so metal" par la fenêtre d'un train ou bien à la gare de la Hulpe dont le chemin débouchait sur un carrefour de murs à peindre Ensuite j'écrivais un livre très complet sur l'apprentissage, le respect et la bienveillance et le silence ___ Il was raining et on interdisait à un chien blanc de rentrer alors j'ai ouvert la porte et je l'ai séché car il ne mérite pas d'être dehors dans le froid J'étais à la Hulpe et ma chambre était cozy ~~~ C'est la guerre dehors, nous quittons le pays et il faut faire ses sacs. Prévoir le strict minimum. Vêtements, carnets, sous-vêtements ', chaussettes Remplir les poches, penser à l'hiver Il est minuit passé et on m'envoie dans la maison d'à côté, deux enfants, et un père. Une grande maison, remplie d'objets. De choses pour eux, leur apprentissage. ~~~ My mom doing grocery (she get angry when I speak out about her addictions and irrationality) Bleeding from a finger after trying to close a knife Playing guitars Had a dream dreaming of my current apartment ___ Entre autre je faisais une course de mini camion qui fait bipbiip ___ Ai rêvé que j'étais dans la coloc de Lou, une petite maison isolée un peu sombre et boisée. Iel faisait du thé et des tartines, on parlait de dessin. Du carnet de 4 minutes dans sa cuisine. Je n'avais pas l'impression qu'iel m'écoutait vraiment, irl parlait de manière nerveuse et distraite. Je lui ai parlé du livre "Lettres à l'absente", un roman épistolaire (un échange de lettres) entre un père et sa fille. Iel a refusé de vouloir y jeter un oeil, de le lire, pour des raisons personnelles. J'étais blessée en quelque sorte ; qu'iel ne s'intéresse pas à une oeuvre qui m'a touchée. J'étais vexée et gênée de lui en avoir parlé, alors je suis partie en courant prendre le métro. ___ Je sortais d'une école primaire, Had a skateboard and was heading to my place, with a friend (Chloe ?). And we were running to my place en skate et il part en arrière sans faire exprès alors quelqu'un me le renvoie et derrière il est marqué "Ekors*, de manière mystérieuse et d'autres messages, quand je le retourne je vois Ekors qui fait genre il m'a pas vu, il ensuite on arrive chez moi et genre ma mère a installé un grand mur a graffiti ou plutôt un rideau à graff il était déjà passé par là. On rentre dans la maison et en fait je ne vivais plus ici (j'avais pas de chambre), donc je n'ai rien pu lui montrer, il semblait intéressé et voulais entrer et en découvrir plus mais j'étais entre autre chez Ez (?) avec sa famille nombreuse (grand mère, maman, petite soeur, Chloé et un chat qui avait un tardigrade dans les dents, une énorme bestiole noire que la mère a retiré avec une sorte de gélatine contrôlée à distance avec ses doigts, le chat pleurait et une mue de ses deux pattes était au sol près de la cuisine pas ramasser car ils "en avaient besoin" et Ez les zyeutait car elles étaient en bon état mais avait confondu le mot "vouloir et avoir" dans sa phrase Et le tout petit chat ferma la bouche. ___ Idk I was blocking people from internet on Neocities to keep safe this place then I naviguated on website and did some more things then my alarm rang and it was like Qwentin slapping the table like very hard ___ Was with Yaya and was supposed to bring food at school to share it with everyone somehow but went went to the toilet for too long and missed the call so there is no food left for envy and everybody went back home (everything was so clean like it never happened), I was preparing something so silly and unwanted like : triangle chips with triangle shaped food (c'était des biscuits langues de chats mdrrr) and was about to cut in triangle something fried and cold lol We were about to share and eat with Yaya but the light was always falling mimicking Michael Jackson from his clip lol Then Yaya found back the very mini hat they offered me because they made an oral presention about Nostalgia ___ Hauyen a faim alors je lui propose une collation : un kinder Bueno ou un snack biscuit aux chive et onion ___ Sécher le cours de sport ___ About envie de pleurer après avoir ouvert un courrier envoyé par ton pote chelou qui t'as envoyé une peau de renard et une taxidermie de paresseux/pangolin Je ne l'aime pas ___ Wandering around the station to find a spot to paint The train station of your childhood ___ Espace neutre Bonne nuit / sieste ___ Piscine privée dans un espace de plusieurs étages Salle de bain, douche dans une chambre, sans rideaux, murs normaux, deux soirs de douches, dans la chambre d'un enfant avec pleins de t'as de trucs et de vêtements, lit superposé Jdois faire attention de pas mettre de l'eau partout Salle de bain des parents, hyper modernes un peu kitch, des objets ici et là, aucune poussière